Confessions
I tell the truth a lot more than I used to. No more omissions about who I am and what behaviors I actually do. This also means naming boundaries, limits, desires, and fears to others. Ideally confessions support vulnerability
One things about me is that I have full approval for what’s considered taboo and let myself have it, and have had the gift of having the opportunity to have it. I support letting yourself have it. I teach taking it all the way down and leaning in. This includes our emotions.
I’m not supporting letting your life run amok. I’m referring to the conscious awareness and choosing of fully going into an experience, to live it, and be carved by it.
One of my confessions is about my work with Pu$$Y. I started working with sex magic in 2019. I read books on ancient gnosis and how Jesus and Mary Magdalene used sexual energy to prepare his body for death. I leaned about the scared priestesses of Isis and Hathor and the worship of the vulva when the feminine was honored. I learned the etymology of the word “Hor” and “Harlot” and how these words have been hijacked. I also learned I could use sexual energy to get what I wanted. I don’t recommend this anymore. I used it egoically, and created unwanted karma. Also, what I wanted was not based in truth, they were based in survival. Now I work with this energy to open to the cosmos and how the universe wants to guide me.
In my trauma training days, grounding was referred to a lot. It still is. But its not really understood. It’s a surface first step concept to the cognitive understanding of what is means to be connected to the earth but it’s really a soothing; lip service technique with no soul. Now that I have moved from interest in trauma to transformation, grounding has a new origination-connection to matter and the void of creation. It means working with my sex to fully land in my body- to create density. I learned this from my teacher @perri.chase . My meditation practice turned into a pussy practice- cultivating the energy to GROUND in the body and move in through. I never wanted to be in this plane. Pussy has helped me choose life- to actually ground here and now.
